I’ve concluded that I’m confused.
Close this wound, that I etched,
Scraped into my minds skin.
My nails feel they’re committing a sin.
Maybe I gotta shape the edges to curve to the shape, to fit within the box.
So we can close the lid.
Tag: poetry
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I cannot be found looking at the painting too deeply.
As there’s a place where people like me go when the things they think are not believed – and I’m not going back, and it’d be my ticket there.
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When the audience doesn’t clap for my sad, sad tune. That I sing in monotone – blew through the microphone, like a wind so untouchable.
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Shut within her locket, memories, that corrupt her sense of stability to the ground. Fireworks corrupt her mind with the intention to seep her through the limits of her illogicality. Corrupting my mind with verbal words and melody, seems to always go this way. Corrupted by not being able to verbalise my feelings, because it’s always me who’s illogical and no one else.
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You made me a beautiful painting, and then signed another’s name to it. The girl in the painting, her eyes are filled with salty water. She swims, and lives in dreams. You’re waiting for her rain in the sleepy desert you call purgatory. Meanwhile she’s drowning in her own purgatory.
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It’s always twisting and winding and unclear. I like interpreting, but it leaves a lot to the imagination – maybe things untrue within my head, and because it’s someone else’s name that’s etched on the stone – it brings tears to my eye that bleed, and stain the carpet. Because the carpet is where I’m stuck to the ground inside a stolen look within someone’s eye. And I know my poems probably suck, and I know I probably suck. But I can’t help but feel suffocated, but in some sense I like it, and in another sense I want to getaway – because I’m drowning not floating.
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Feet burning on the slate,
Stepping out of this state,
Won’t be as easy as fate,
pulling me out with bate,
Stealing all the hate,
That temper greeds to create.
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I opened the door and expected someone to be there. Even though I knew no one would be there.
The sun blinds, but I don’t need to be shaded. Time flies but it seems like a lifetime waiting for tomorrow.
Things changed for me when I realised, maybe we had the same dream last night.
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They say talk to me directly, and don’t forget me. They want to be included, not thought to be deluded. I know they’re afraid, and feel tied down. Chasing their freedom, while feeling fearsome – Together we’ll steal the sunshine, and not feed the dark side within our coping cave.
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I’m offended, by what you say with a needle through my brain
I say, it’s okay I’m not insane. I understand how it displays that way
Though, Scratching through my soul nothing ends the panic & distress
Stress will bury me. Lying in a shallow grave, as they pile the dirt over me. There’s no way out.
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So long searching
For scolding, shreds of simple stations
On the television, still contemplating sayings, scripts of crippling cravings
Stepped in a puddle, seen my reflection
Did not recognise which direction
To sink slowly, shrinking through contemplation.
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Fight or flight, I gotta get away
Unsure if I have anything to say
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I dunno if I can understand what goes on in my mind – and maybe I don’t have to, but I still try. I’m trying to understand what goes beyond me, but it ends up all muddled up, because everything’s in fragments. I can’t tell if memory feels real – true, or false. But Maybe it’s just because I’m due for my depot.
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Watching the words mix in the songs, still slow to react to the flow. I always take the same stance on the trance – things run around my head, causing head aching, suffocating confusion. So I picked myself up off the floor, and let it go, and tried to ignore. But I don’t know what comes next, I dunno. It won’t stop screwing around with my head.
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One push will knock me over.
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Foggy memory slips in from the distance. Send my whole soul back to the last life, and I can start over, and right all my wrongs. I shaped a circle on the wall, trace it over, and over, create a black hole – go through, sends me back to the past life.
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I’m afraid if I’ve been mislead, because I can’t handle when people deny the truth. I confess my wrong doings, a compulsion simmering on testing fumes. Because I’ve always had a strong conviction to right and wrong.
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We’ve got great minds, but I always struggle to separate my skin from my emotions.
I spoke to a stranger, which made me feel stranger.
I’m always gazing at the past, pointing out every constellation. Hoping to come to a conclusion.
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I wish I could be content within myself, anxiety always overshadows. Compulsion, static sympathy. I finished that show last night, it made me cry. Some things are so meaningless, but I think about them over and over till they have meaning.
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Her heart roams the earth, bound by existence. Stripped down to a matchstick flame, frozen like a photograph – So always a memory.
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It all Changed for me, when I promised myself I’d never forget. I’m awake when everyone else sleeps. Everything goes through my mind, anger, distress, peace, quiet and always longing for more. Can you give yourself to someone, when your heart belongs to another.
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It’s just classic, these feelings that corrode my sense of existence. Not present, just going through the motions of emotions that attack my inner soul. Solutions seem far away, but I know if I look that they will be near.But I don’t have the motivation to look, I’ll procrastinate till the end, and sometimes I hope it isn’t far away. -
I created a world where my dreams flew wild, they blew in the deep blue sky…and it seemed I seen it all…but it was only your silhouette, with the parts that my dreams filled in.
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I left so many promises behind, and had none to move forward with. Stolen stares and separate affairs, no one could have predicted what was to come of some of us ahead.
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It’s all in my head, everything I needed to say. But it’s like it’s been illogically scribbled on a napkin, it doesn’t make sense when my mouth moves to say it. Creatively thought through, but riddled in the middle of confusion. Nothing reaches the conclusion, it’s just a spinning splash of gibberish.
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You keep me in your words
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Time floats me away
but I don’t mind dreaming today
on a cloud
I play my music so loud to drown out the sound
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Somewhere out there someone is staring at a statement written on a page, Desperate to understand.
The page is empty now because writers block swept over like a hurricane twisting the words from the page.
Now I feel I’m falling down whenever I stand up, and i’ve been afraid, and I know you’ll decide what you want.
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When you discover things aren’t real, you drown your whole world in your mind.
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What if I’m way off with my thoughts and feelings,
What if I can’t control my emotions if they get close.
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Why don’t you want me to know? Probably the same reason I don’t want you to know. But I don’t know why I don’t what you to know.
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It’s outta the control of fate. Destiny’s riding on the secrets of our past. Slow rituals embrace us through heavens mistakes.
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Go to sleep, let the ringing fall to silence. I know it cuts deep, especially when you begin to sense the things you regret. Set a time to wake up, move your feet to the beat. Take a seat, bring yourself back to the moment…
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And she feels inferior, do you think anyone can hear her? She feels stolen, do you think anyone can stop her falling?
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It was almost as though you could touch the air
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Don’t leave hope up to me
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So spacious, I’m so ungracious. Slipped and fell on a sinful fight. The night comes fast, man it freaks me out. Stay, and the world beckons for an applause. Only time will tell, the difference between now and then. Spend on the end of a finger prick. Pick your battles, well okay I will.
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Crucial coincidences. Misidentifying. Rapid cycling. System overloading. Minds folding. Stubborn incidences. Fine principles. Caving walls. Detail falls. Just Craving more.
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Had a year just to stay all mine, I had some time to stay all night.
It’s a Beating crime to go out of sight.
The room closes in so tight, just wasting away my prime.
It’s defeating, and I felt nothing below my feet.
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Mirages masked in static around the room
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September blues left you with no clues, but creation bleeds through the finger tips and the ink sheds some light on the crash. Assassinating the waves, no lamictal rash, just more stable. Driving in the car, I thought solely of the things that bury me deep in reflection, and then I reflected on it.
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She’s taken the key and ran for it
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I Want to feel free from the walls that line my mind. I wanna let go, without the fear of falling. But Anxiety warns me every time. It talks to me, and he has a name. So I can’t be free, because I don’t want to lose control.
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Earthquakes as birth makes something contoured that was once slow burned. It’s never together, always apart – and maybe the birth takes more than what I will learn. I learn so slowly, you see. I learn so slow, and now it’s too late. Over the head, everything rolls, over my head. In my own world, when I’m tired the butterflies and flowers moved over me. I fell asleep in the garden yesterday.
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Turn on the lights, it’s dark in here, and we all know what monsters hide in the shadows. The frequency is too low, I can’t hear you, I’ll adjust my radio. So then I can speak to you in my dreams, as I sleep. You speak of her and the things you kept, I told you to throw them away. But you weren’t actually there though were you?
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I have a strength in me, to believe in all the things that you say.
But I get misguided, the wires cross. Fiction, and fact get intertwined.
Twisting out of control, the veins in my brains get bigger and bigger.
And I know that It’ll be with me forever.
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I’ll feed my fantasy
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It’s just a daydream…
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But I won’t lie and say that’s okay
Because things don’t get better that way
It just gets swept under the rug
And the rug is a mountain already
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Suspended and connected
Confused till defused
So dangerous it’s outrageous
I’m so genuinely, delicately amused
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Rumours rest on my shoulders, weighing me down
Careful planning plots a patient, painful revenge
Now Regretful actions tilt beside my aching past life
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Listening to the flooded sound, measuring my state of mind on a scale. -
No later, just never
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I want there to be no anger between, no hate in our words.
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I found the words you use to disguise. The room is filled with noises. People talking, don’t make sense. I see images on the walls, they can be beautiful. The music on the speaker is played loud, I bet yours is too. Everything cuts deep, and I have no energy to put into it. But I guess I’ll try.
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I’m slaying my singing in the shower. Energising my voice with such power. Gotta yell, gotta scream and later I’ll feel better.
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Everybody heard the noise from the headphones because I listen to my music too loud. Everybody glanced at the paper as I wrote a letter to myself, but they couldn’t understand anything that it said. Riddled in riddles, septic in meaning, and all the words were lost through time until I found it in the future.
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Coming through the black spot from the dot at the end of the sentence. A whirlwind, catastrophic situation that’s signalling the end.
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Thoughts are a mess, jumping from one thing to the next.
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The weather in my mind is lighting and rain.
Time traveling through all the pain.
Overthinking until I’m insane.
Nothing works right inside my brain.
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As long as our hearts are pure, I’m sure we’ll definitely find a cure to heal our souls. But, the inevitable is always going to come. Playing music while I lie awake unable to sleep because I feel it deep. I keep reminiscing on past memories and how I could have done it differently, even silly things that no-one else would even remember. I want to float away, far away from my thoughts, where I’m just existing without effort.
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Freaky how fragile we are circling in this void. I always try to avoid these things that always come. They’re beyond my control, Stopping motion and causing tragedy. I just hope it wasn’t always tragedy.
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Convince me that I am venomous, but your poison has left me devoid of function.
Whatever love was left, is left in destruction. You give me no reason to salvage.
If you love me, well I hate the way you love me.
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I couldn’t tolerate all my thoughts but the war is won when the Valium takes away all my anxious feelings. All these dealings are overcome, but only for a moment.
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I feel these eyes over me constantly, I feel these eyes watching over me constantly.
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I don’t want to feel any of this anymore
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Truth sleeps while the mouth lies. Temper won’t storm, no not today. But the whispering thoughts still swirl around the mind, till the shallow stems break through the skin.
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My heavy heart will cut deep, and you tried to tell me that that’s how you break a heart and you just hope it won’t fall apart.
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Through the window my ashes float with the breeze down through till the new day begins. It’s so peaceful, I’m so calm going where the wind wants me to be.
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Love leaves so slow, if at all. Stole a piece, and then I never put it back. I sometimes see so clear in my dreams, but when I’m awake my dreams seem so unclear. I address you through my words, but I don’t expect you to see – I’m just a girl you used to know. I’m not angry, although sometimes I am. I guess it’s the way it has to be.
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I have no place, my face is melting in a pool of blood. Burning the sound is rising, it’s getting louder, till there’s nothing. There is No sound, just quiet.
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It’s quite a problem that we can’t find common ground, because I would love to stand with you on our ground.
When you look, do you see me? Or am I remembered in ashes that blew out your window, and so therefore forgotten.
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I paid for the tickets, I came to the show. I stayed in the corner, and listened to the sound.
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And the silence sounds, the silence sings, the silence rings in my ears. Pouring all it has out into the universe, but only I can hear it. Everyone else just hears silence.
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Soulless things wander the streets, Monsters lure under beds, and demons watch as you sleep. It’s a nightmare. It’s a nightmare alright.
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Staring at the screen, nothing but evergreen passes the in-between. no-one can take away the simple stare you make. The water was calm by the lake, so distant in my memory. I must use different sensory to remember the moments past. These things are meant to last.
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I feel like I’m choking, gurgling on air. My throat is tightening, my chest keeps tensing, and I feel like there’s a cyclone spiralling in my stomach.
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A beautiful flower’s petal’s dance under the gleaming light. A drop of rain delicately lands on one of her petals. But she stands strong, and brave until the shower ends and the beautiful sun shows his face once again.
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I ponder so far into my past and ruminate on all my past mistakes…And Ive grown so a custom to this way of thinking.
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So hard to answer all my feelings
When they’ve left me fragile
There’s nowhere left to turn
Everyone just misunderstands
The true feelings that I choose to answer
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Tangled in the web of the artist
Spun to perfection the lies said in direction
to the only face taken in space
Flying in and out of your mind
The thought never stays but never leaves
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I thought I seen you on the rooftop at the burger shop, and my heart stopped as I turned to look, but all I could make out was your black and white converse shoes. -
Stay awake, don’t shut your eyes because I don’t want tomorrow to start. I want tonight to last forever, so I won’t have to face the obligations that the morning brings.
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In the morning, still dark, I woke up dreaming. I seen the hallucinations of the demons and the ghosts, but they don’t visit me anymore. Hypnopompic state had its way with me, but I still think it’s real..yes I still think it was real.
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Romanticise a stupid life that will never exist
Gone through the headlights into the mist
She dances, and twists till her wind dissipates
And I haven’t been able to think for so long, of anything, but you
As long as he’s happy – Then the wind will stop dancing.
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You know she walks on air, she’ll float away so beware
Once you catch her, you gotta set her free
To float away into the clouds
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Delicate dreams peaceful it seems
As they sleep
I am awake
Beautiful flower so delicate
Bring me peaceful dreams tonight
I’ll pull the petals one by one
Until I Fall asleep
I try not to look back
But my dreams always bring back the past
Riddled with regrets
Open my eyes to my mistakes
Let’s just leave the past in the past
And have sweet dreams
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Treat me soft, even though I’ve acted on the impulses of anger. I guess I must expect the same in return, I’m nervous of the words still left to come.
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I feel really overwhelmed, maybe the lorazepam will help. I’m stuck inside my head. I’m struggling, not handling the things you say. If you documented in song the demon at my door, maybe you shouldn’t have. I’m often worried about mind control, and the evil in me taking control.
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All the words that I’ve heard and wrote. Saturated with the cool air, frosted without a care. Crumble, the words will. My door is closed, I’ll keep running. Unease, stormy seas, meant to be’s crash through the entrance of this place – opening the door.
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I’ve been waiting what seems like a while
For you to tell me what you know, tell me true, I’ll tell you too.
Anger swells in my surf. Stumbling sections of separating extensions slowly entertaining the idea that maybe things are the way they should be.
Nothing sits right, the seatbelt is so tight. I sense this slight tone in the words you choose. I just think I’m bound to lose on this quest you call love.
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So suppose things could be different, I’ll ruminate about it for forever. So many questions, so many leeches stuck to my thoughts – maybe that’s why I can’t find the answers through the memories my mind gives. If I just think more, I’ll be able to find them, if I just think more maybe I can understand.
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Not talking to myself, you know they’re there, whispering in the crooked, croaked, cabinet they call my mind.
Total silence is hard to find, no visuals ever enter my mind. It’s just black, and I’ve always been afraid of the dark.
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You’re blaming the game as the reason why you cheat. Planning principles on the back of deceit. Every time you prove them blind, you feel sublime.
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Inspiration hits when she flips
Out of control
So better prepare
For a sceptic scare
She’ll glare
You’ll stare
Pretty,
At a cost to impair
Tempting,
On tell tale grips
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My mind will spread its roots all through my brain, extracting every sense of self. Leaking poison through the icky parts of myself, convincing me of all that is wrong with the way I feel. And I feel lost, I feel sad, but I feel I must overcome at any cost.
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Stop swaying the words to sound like it’s all something special waiting to stop me before I contract the oath that bonds the states of my mind together. Someone should tell me before I seperate into tiny particles stemming through the air, but they have told me…I just don’t believe them.
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Step on each petal of the flower, tiptoe through the blackhole in the middle. Checkmate, all the cubes are straight, perfect symmetry from an obsessive compulsive. State the facts, go through it over and over and over again, an intrusive and unwanted thought which never collapses to leave the mind.
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It can bring out the best, but it can bring out the worst. I don’t want to be the motivation, the reason to get out of bed. There’s no need for inspiration, everything must come to an end. Just don’t forget to send me the memo, so I can find something more in this sound. I’m hearing but I’m not listening. I’m looking but I can’t see…I’m blinded.
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You used to make the best paper planes, but now I can’t remember how to make them. They flew in circles, and I’ve just stood still. Clinging to free will, I didn’t take the pill that helps me heal. Desperate to contain my emotions.
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The songs sing like venom in your ears. With rhythm, rhymes, and so called reasons. The treasons curse like poison in your ears. With purpose, plans, and long lost prayers.
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Copy and paste all the parts that I want to be on top of the parts that I am, my brain computer overloaded, guess I’m stuck as Frankenstein.
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I don’t know anything about love. I don’t know anything about hearts, except when myocarditis starts. Pink hearts weren’t all over my notebook, neither were another’s last name behind mine. But still I let my mind go crazy over illusions, things based on circumstance and coincidence.
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When angels space out in the heavens scoping out the demons lair. Stationed softly deep below, the fire beckons for your soul to conform to lose control. Always under my own control, I sway whenever I can to lose it, because there’s always the pressure of being so preserved all the the time.
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You’re scrubbing your hands but they won’t get clean. I imagine you feel the cold so easily. I made a conclusion in my head and the idea keeps being re-born over and over again. Sometimes words don’t come so easily, sometimes actions don’t make sense. I’ll be cursed, detached, and defamed. It’s like I’ve been framed, labaled, and distanced. Honestly i don’t think it’s worth it.
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But I promise that I’m not dangerous, I’m just lost in my madness
Always thinking I’m worthless, convince me I’m flawless
And I promise that I’m not heartless, I’m just lost in my sadness
Always thinking I’m hopeless, convince me I’m precious
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Astounding the places my mind goes, travelling through time just to roam a planet far away. Clever at tricking, it’s sticking to its story. Strong to misguide, never thinking right. Confused, misjudged, statements left unsaid. Sounds found deep within. Too much control. But I can’t control either.
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I’m gonna fall apart before I ever get the part where you say you care. You have to stare, glaring at the empty chairs – A systematic sinister snapshot berating us with its existence.
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Secrets signed with pencil
I’ve still got damage from the image of you kissing her
My signature can easily be erased
My pockets are filled with scepticism
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Love to end in tragedy, isn’t it oh so romantic. Oh no, but it’s supposed to be all okay with you. Every fad and curse to start with emptiness, isn’t it a tragedy you’ll say, Everything is lost on me. I do listen to your words and rhymes, even though I misunderstood.
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Each to their own, I won’t try to confide in someone so blind. Tragedy seep through a world where I struggle to understand the fundamental ingredient to undo my regret. Not much could hold my attention but not much could break my attention. Though things are only in my head.
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Droplets seep into the skin below your eyes, sorrow awakens and begs us to surrender. Solemnly swear to my broken back and shoulders left bare, that I will try to move today.
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Sunshine gloom. Tears in fearsome eyes. Colours of all shades, glowing in this game charade. Sometimes I can see more than what’s beyond me.
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A fairytale ending is no ending at all, maybe if we stall. We’ll make it to the ball before we fall, deeper and deeper. But no, i’m just a creeper. Getting steeper, and steeper. Getting deeper, and deeper.
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Yeah, I’ll be up all night, but that doesn’t bother me. I talk to the birds, say hello, say goodbye. Never thought I’d be a fool, but maybe I’m a fool for you, Just for today. Tell me a story, I’ll listen I promise.We drive by, I always look because sometimes your name is there.
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I never changed my mind, circles, go round and round. Too stubborn to influence, intuition is often confused. Why live your life wondering if you don’t have to. I don’t understand why I have to live my life wondering. Acting natural in front of you, something a rather. Maybe something lucky will happen. It’s amazing how many stories go round and round my head.
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Trusted in the fate of the fear. Gutted, inspired by the interference. Fragrance stepped out through the smell of my nose, stolen senses break on the freaking of my mind. My mind doesn’t care for insight.
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Staring blankly at a fragmented ceiling, my heart screams from within me, nothing can console my rotten bones. So I lie here and stare at the fragments above me, and dream.
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Sweet how your words sink
Down the drain Into my heart
Should of known from the start
That when it comes to a depart
You will not be my missing link
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When I find out I wasted all this time planning the perfect crime, it’s fine, everything can roll over me like the car tires that scatter the gravel on the road. Should we believe everything we’re told, not sure, probably not. It seems to smother me, but at the same time, I love it.
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I’ll pretend I’m not one of habit when my habits are causing me detriment. I’ll stay awake and crash the next night, and sleep enough for two days. It’s not that I’m bad, well not too bad anyways, I just get lost sometimes.
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I bet you feel the cold oh so easily. Can you focus, or do you lose attention oh so easily. Does it feel the same, or can you forget oh so easily. I don’t know if to hold you dearly, or to let you go oh so easily. I keep searching but the answers don’t come so easily.
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Sometimes I stare at the sky to find a cloud that speaks to me loud. Wondering through the faces, leaving steep traces. People are watching, people are reading the thoughts that read through the spaces of my mind. I don’t want to do normal people things, they say I have no motivation, yeah I guess that’s true. I wish I could just be left to simmer and wait till this life is done.
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I sometimes google what you mean. The results of my analysis of the words prove to send me more confused. I over think things, and people may not read this but I don’t want things to be unpleasant between me and you. I’m confused, I’m always looking for answers, but I’m worried I’m looking where there isn’t any, but maybe no message is a message.
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I feel butterflies in my stomach sink, I see butterflies in hot pink.
It’s just a cheap trick, fluttering till I’m sick.
How am I surviving on such bad instinct ?
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Forever is a really long time, to feel as though you’ve committed a crime.
I never think before I relinquish my pain. It always leaves a stain on you.
I keep reminding myself it’s all in my head, because it’s just easier that way.
Like how I hear people chatting in my ears, or how I see images on the walls.
It’s not real.
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I worry I’ll see someone’s reflection behind me in the window. I made a wish as I blew out the candles, I have a feeling my wish came true.
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You’re just trying to rekindle the looks of your youth. I don’t want to obsess over things I don’t have time for. Watching the sea crush the sand, we need another plan.
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All my visions, they just appear. Dripping along the typed paragraph, all my expectations disappear. Seeping through the skin, the scars reappear. Making it so damningly clear, that there’s so obviously still fear.
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You runaway. It’s never gonna matter, because you’re never gonna forget her. They say everything happens different through the seasons. All your dreams revolve around, all your fears crash around. So slow, I look for silver rings, hoping I don’t find any. But one day I will.
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And I’m like I give up, a glimpse, a fool. I’m lost within, I have no control over myself. My tears roll, my voice yells. A prank forgotten about. No desire left in my doubt.
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Future self I see, and I don’t like her. She speaks and then she shocks with her words. she’s clever, uneasy, and super breezy. She’s quiet in company, sometimes her mind yells voices too loud and too soon. I ask How far ahead are you? She’s older, and bolder but she’s not me, just some random lady I happened to pass by.
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Wake up in the morning to a dramatic exit. Systematic stand still rock n rolling control stares slip through. I’d like to hear about your day, I kinda freaked out, I find your intensity overwhelming. I feel confused, reality is blurred with fantasy. I had to get away because I fear I’m unwell.
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It’s The moment she realised she had no space. Her words were hopeless, been watching. They ravish on the bones of the skeletons, they’re watching. She has no space. She wants to be free, she doesn’t want to think about it. She wants to be free from your sight not to see.
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I tried to say but I think the message came through the wrong way. I tried to scream, but it was only in my mind. I hope you don’t mind me asking why?
Today my brain is talking, it’s not me, he just talks every once in a while.
I’m needing the connection that you can give me, the connect of a time lost in a basket of damaged trust.
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Always scared I’m getting lost in my own mucked up mind. If you lie it’s supposed to become my truth, because your well mind is more reliable than my sick mind. I’m done with the ect, I don’t want to go back to hospital, I don’t want to be around you any longer.
But I can’t let go.
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I wish I knew why I can’t get into bed, I’d sleep on the lounge for days on end. Usually awake, sometimes all night. I start to hallucinate, probably from sleep deprivation, or maybe just psychotic. I guess It’s chaotic.
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All the People caught in your web, they lie for your lies, and you cry for your broken heart but don’t bat an eye to rip out another. You say that you love me like I’m some tourist attraction, when you never even bothered to get to know me. Infatuated with a ghost as you sleep by another. You messed with my perception of reality, if you were like me you would know to never do that. I don’t think I can forgive…I don’t think I want to forgive.
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I want to argue, but you do not. You’ve got no fight, maybe I have too much. I feel sad that maybe its done, I haven’t spoke to you in what seems long, but it hasn’t. I said goodbye in the thought you’d run after me, but you didn’t and you won’t.
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Destroy, take a breath, and re-stack the shelves. My wrath won’t plague the breath of despair. I’m frozen since the day the confusion started.
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You’re hopeless, indirect, unsuspecting, predictably stationed. Your words won’t get through, because they’re dripping in lies. So stipulated, is it understated, or just created to be fated. The End…
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Plot twist, it’s a legend – the story. It starts, and ends. It twists her brain into oblivion. She’s confused, but she feels that way often. She thinks she’s better off safe than in the arms of another. But she didn’t know before that it would last her lifetime, but now she does. It feels like Whispering in her ear. Fever in the brain, stitched in her ears after what she hears. Not obvious, a bit foggy, somewhat clear to her sickness. But she must not give in.
-
Stated simply to gain a positive impact on a fallout that is bound to occur. I’m steadily gaining traction as I peddle down this fracture. A taser to my brain, you left it all messed up. I’m confused, not knowing what’s real from what’s not.
-
The vines reach up to strangle the curtains
Leaving them gasping for air
Standing in all my despair
They curl around me, And suffocate me
-
And when you felt the cold radiate from under my skin. Everything reacts at once, an explosion of indecisiveness. Changing disposition to reflect me staring back at you. And Some things mean nothing to me.
-
Can you send your feelings through the mic, so I can analyse the lyrics till I confuse them. De Clérambault’s syndrome sync to my beat. I think I’m finally tempted to run to my defeat.
-
Stitched my lips so you won’t hear it from me. But when the scissors break them free, everyone will see that everything is not the way they are supposed to be. Figured I would have figured this out by now, don’t know maybe I’m not meant to know, and the snow was always gonna fall over my gutted head.
-
You seem so bitter
When really you’re just busy
Watching the stars
Gazing in bars
Tasting the cars
To treasure the litter
Yeah I’m just litter
Treasuring the fitter
You can never save me
From the setting sun
Setting sun…
Severe my staging state
Never meant to take
Forever bound…
Forever bound…
I say so long to the state I am bound. Goodbye…
-
Maybe it wasn’t meant to hurt me, but I can’t stop thinking, what if it was.
-
My temper falls to a cry
Maybe it’s difficult to try
When the standards are so high
You left my brain to fry
Keeping up with your lie
-
Tomorrow I’ll run against the smallest odds
I’ll frown upon the lonely thoughts
That trim a breathless pain too close to remain
In my destiny
-
‘Wake up’ my mind calls to itself ‘wake up’ don’t dream too small. Burry your heart in something tall, trigger warnings swallow me until I fall.
-
Everything drifts into silence, I speak but there are no words.
I search for the light. They say that it’s there. So I know that it’s there. But my eyes don’t wanna see.
The need for belonging continues to drift with the feeling of empty, meaning I don’t have the need to belong.
There’s the numb divide between me and you. You deafen what’s truth, and what’s lie. The medication, or Even the zaps couldn’t clear you from my mind.
-
So is that what it is, a heart for a heart sorta thing. I break yours, you break mine
-
Looking at the pictures of us…
-
There will never be time in this life to bring back the sight that unknowingly blinds the windows of this house. Perpetuated, sometimes insinuated, blacken the depth beneath your gaze. For your gaze crucifies me in an attempt at being heard. Nothing can beckon the strength to pull through. I’ll lie here damaged, ditched, and dead on the floor.
-
Celebrating a bad situation, throwing my forgiveness at it. Almost like it’s meant to belong here.
-
Why? Why must things be this way? We must suffer to know pleasure. Freedom comes when we are one with ourselves. But I’m shattered in little pieces.
-
I’m traveling and I don’t know where I’m going. Strangled by knowing. I’m becoming by drowning. How I’m always drowning. Pounding my drum through.
-
I’m terrible, totally trashable. Dancing on ice, I fall more than twice. Slow cooked crooked damned man, never knowing what comes next. Frozen in an everlasting space. Begging just to escape. Sinister solemn souls bare bold on my back bone, nothing can touch me, and I mean not even you.
-
Nobody ever would dare to spare the salty tears that dance down your face. your hands kiss your cheeks as they wipe the tears away. The words leave your lips, and I’m crucified by your gaze. Lazy days and long lost words play on my mind. Hoping that it’s not all in my mind.
-
So deductive, mind blown
Wish I could of seen
That I was not unseen
Frozen shivers run down
My spine
Sorry I missed that line
Can you say it clearer
Because it haunts me
Not knowing
-
Crowded, haunted, surrounded. it sounds like the voices in my head, I got to get away – before the violins play. They play for each tear that drops, they play for the sadness within my heart, and they play for the long lost dreams that never quite made it.
-
A million words could surpass me, but the ones that stick are those that come with a thorn.
-
The lightning sustains me
The thunder bereaves me
And the Rain always misbehaves
-
I heard there was something to say when someone had hurt you so.
I don’t know these words, but I don’t know, maybe you do.
I wonder if you’ve shared such words with me before
But I was too naive to know
-
I’m just trying to love you, any way that I can
But you’re already somebody’s baby
I’ve been so sad lately
And I don’t want to disappoint you
But I’m not the person you’re looking for, you know you’ll always want more
-
Everybody knows, Everybody but me
-
Strapped back, stuck in the back
Fronting the elements in the great contusion constructing my body
Nothing enters without leaving, nothing stays without going. They all move forward, while I move backward.
-
Sunshine aches on the back of my bones
Broken by the backbone of the stones
Stolen by a form of broken place
Rubbing the last existence of my face
-
There was never anything
That could explain everything
I feel the jealousy sting
Hope there won’t be any bling
It’s nice to hear the birds sing
-
It still stings under the water, why does this always happen to me? the self loathing
I’m always desperately trying to make it to the surface to grasp for air
But you’re holding my leg pulling me down back into the depths of despair where my tears created this ocean.
-
You have forsaken me, left me in the ditches to rot and burn with the fire you left behind. Crying to be rescued, I pull myself up from the dirt but not without the 3rd degree burns.
-
Feel the freshness of the breath blowing on your face, the breath of this spring day, dancing around your fears. You’re finding things troubling, she wonders if fact is fiction, is it all in her head.
-
Late night, cannot sleep
Thinking about something deep
Letting it go round and round my head
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The Memory of you, so sweetly gazing through the window. Day dreaming, I always wondered what you were thinking. The memory of you, watching the clock everything done on the dot. The memory of your chocolate stash, the one I would have loved to snatch. The memory of you becoming so fragile and weak. I must admit it was hard to say goodbye, but I will always have my memory of you.
-
The light was out of sight
The darkness was the opposite from bright
The walls caving in so tight
I keep thinking nothing feels right
I might begin my flight
-
Swiftly but surely I’ll stroll by the hole in my heart
I’ll staple it back to the start
Oh, how love plays such a part
-
I never thought this would happen
I imagine you lying on your side
with a stitch too strong to undo
Because of me
Everything goes black
And I’m slowly walking toward the door
Definitely reaching out for more
As I go to turn the handle
Nothing feels the same…
What’s on the other side?
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Alone, Alone again. Dance in the sand. No-one knows I’m bare. Sending splendour in something so rare. Nobody can take this control, not even them. The one that dares to live inside of me. I tell them to go away, but they do nothing but stay. I call you the evil in me. I try to say goodbye to that part of me, but the thoughts still thunder through my mind…Intrusive thoughts.
-
Trust in the way that you betray
My memory is not clear, use it to your advantage
Do you really believe anyone deserves this all
Why is the voice singing, why is it clinging
All this pain leads to dreams stinging
I can take it if I want to
-
Slippery and slowly scraping by, maybe I’m done. Maybe I’m no fun. Maybe I don’t even see the sun. Sobbing in the backseat…The front seat is taken.
-
Dead in the night, left me in so much fright. Gone outta sight. A fight with the light.
-
Watching the faces, flow through these places. Gemini or Cancer, I don’t know the answer. Butterflies flutter and shutter, executing me and leaving me lonely. If only I had known before it was too late. Cleaning the slate won’t be as easy as fate. So here I go, I say Goodbye, Goodbye, Goodbye
-
Shiver with the wither, slither slit with scissors
-
Sunshine aches on the back of my bones
Broken by the backbone of the stones
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Sowed together through the needle bloody, seemingly beating in a perfect rhythm. Edging on the empty sold out prism. He says ‘Present yourself’, but she never shows up. slowly each stitch starts to come apart.
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Wearing pink lipstick, pulling my hair back, bright purple eyeshadow. Seeming so innocent, and believing it as well. But you know your truth. Seemingly untouched, separately seen to you. But You don’t know my truth.
- Truth
-
Look at the sun shine
Watch it burn
Away all of your pain
Symptoms of time
Life left unknown
Watching the sun burn till we’re blown
-
The storage in my brain feels like it’s almost full. I process through all my negative thoughts, but I can’t delete a single one. Nothing about this is really any fun. Reliving every moment like sunburn from bathing in the sun.
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It’s hard finding inspiration
You’ll see I’m always waiting
Looking for something breaking
Taking all my impaction
It’s a long life infraction
-
I’m losing favour
In the depths of this flavour
Please be my saviour
Intense behaviour
Total betrayer
You are the slayer
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The damage is done, and life goes on.
But I didn’t think I’d be waiting this long.
I hear a melody in a delicate song.
Telling me everything I’ve done wrong.
I’m keeping the etiquette to stay strong.
While Remembering loosely I do not belong.
-
Hesitating while contemplating
So invading, my life’s upstaging
Fall from the caging, Freedom’s taking
Damage rebranding on a time left standing
-
Every word held over my head
Please when I go to bed
Let me sleep this river away
The mountain was steep, does it compel you to stay?
-
Did you hear all the rumours
I think they’re true
The walls you build to keep safe
There’s nobody here, in my dream, but you and me.
I can’t keep following without knowing
Give me peace, I am the only one here
-
My mind is lost and my heart is tossed. Stolen in an instant, I was no investment. Depreciating every day, my testament out on display. Pretending everything was gonna be okay. I was debating by the day, wondering what you will say.
-
The words will not come
Leave clues like bread crumb
Breathe deep through your lungs
Sing creep through your tongues
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Congratulations!
I’m saturated
Impulse on overdrive
Eye contact is scarce
Singing lullabies in my head
Much is lost with the dead
I wish everything was ok instead
-
Your distress is dressed to impress
Instant attack, takes me aback
Good luck to something that will suck
Front and back, your lack of trust is engraved
Lonely and deprived, slowly divided
And Into nothing none the less
-
It’s the parts that’s frozen
It’s the starts that’s chosen
You left your mark
Like a timid shark
Soft with a mean bite
I’ll be out of sight
-
Situations lost
But at what cost
You say to forget
But I have all this regret
Situations lost
And it was at a cost
I can’t forget
And you can’t erase this regret
-
It’s like a sitcom and we both play the victim and in an attempt to glance I tend to stare, rough and rare, tell me you still care. Nothings gonna end my pain, and I still haven’t made peace with that yet. When I was In the audience and it feels so raw, I wish I knew more. And if only you saw.
-
How do you lie? With the etch in your eye
It’s so hard to find the heart behind the wall that you’ve built up so tall.
-
Sweet Angel take me
Don’t let them wake me
I’m bent over backwards
Frozen like the statues
An accent on a champagne pain
Make me better, make me feel better
Do I need the zaps again
I’m caught up in traps
Sweet Angel take me
Don’t let them wake me
-
Give me something to take from my miserable life
Don’t leave me to beg in strife
I thrive on the hope, I deprive on the unknown
Broken and unspoken – can you just give me another clue? To make me feel it’s true.
-
I see the manipulator
He’s my favourite player
Withdrawing every layer
Maybe you could stay and…
– To Be Continued
-
Sometimes we want it all
Sometimes we seem to fall
And sometimes I hear your call
-
I was Polishing my worst qualities
And maybe I should say I’m sorry
-
Sing so sad, but lingerings bad. I want to hold on, but what I’m hearing may be a dream. Nothing is as it seems, bringing pain with every slander. Leaving a crater in the depths of my heart. Taking me back to the start, where it all began…
-
Taken on a long whispering road, winding through the ashes of my past. A trillion reasons to be on my way but I’m here to hear what you have to say. Are you gonna make me pay?
-
A child lost inside
Moving with the tide
Waves go up & down
Reminiscing on this town
I don’t think I’ll make you proud
Every word that breaks from your mouth becomes too loud
I’m begging to hear a particular sound to put my mind at ease
A burden I ride on the ocean’s seas
-
In the prison of my mind
I sing a song, and try to find
A reason to be kind
Simply gazing through this time
Almost thinking it was a crime
I must admit it was sublime
-
The fire that Hellfire brings to attack
Hypnosis may refine my hidden thoughts
But your poison will not grant me no justice
I must not tire, I must burn to the wire.
Don’t call me a liar, when one still must suffer
A brief explanation is all I ask
But it seems to be too big of a task
Unveil your mask, and bask in the truth
-
Looking for Inspiration with desperation
Taking time to infect my abrasion
I feel like I’ve been left on this station
To linger lonely in a some what sensation
-
Ever waited so long just to discover you don’t belong?
Questions buried in loneliness, but not the type of lonely one would assume. It’s a loneliness because no one understands.
-
Whisper willingly back to the biggening
Softly spoken, carefully broken
It Never ends, the bloating bends
Keep a secret too stale to unwind this betrayal
Feverish to a pale tale, slowly dreaming of infinity
And slipping through the insanity
-
This rewinding in my head going over every word that you said
Sing a song to make everything go along
Will I always be in the shadows teasing like black widows
Looking out of the windows, my heart shows
Closeness when still faraway
I’m sad
But you’re with the sunshine
And that’s okay
⁃ Stay there
-
I don’t know how I live with this regret
Maybe if I wish to forget instead of to reset
I might find peace in the depths of my upset
Always I have struggled dreaming of what I should get
-
One of the saddest who has seen the happiest in her life
Propelling to the top of the food chain
And downgraded some time after
Feathers and treasures bend through the light
All the lies that someone sent
Swept under the carpet
But never forgotten
-
The weight pressing on my lungs
Expressing the essence that leaves me lush
Waiting, and waiting for a never
Stopping and starting forever
Glance at the light, I’m never in the dark
Was I supposed to share that part
A lot has kept me apart
From the social start
I’m not lonely in the way you think
I’m lonely in the way because not many understand
But do you understand?
-
Oceans made from the tears you wept
Cutting edge back through the nights I slept
Am I in your debt or are you in mine?
Maybe if I never knew I’d be fine
But I want to know, I want to know what’s true
Ultimately can I believe in you
Because I’m unsure if your words are true
-
I can’t withstand the extent of my long lost thought
Nail it down like a treasure begging to be kept
I’m trending on the sentiment of my mind
Cross roading through the fast thoughts
Blinking, breathing deep
I can’t watch you weep, and I cannot sleep
-
I opened my eyes to be greeted with lies
Injected with insincerity, my heart cries
As my brain tries to float away
Emptying into oblivion
-
Painstaking undo this tracking
I’m bombarded by avalanches
Thoughts confused with fiction
Or is it words whispered in lies
Have mercy on me
I did not know firstly
And secondly I’m broken
A temper framed like a time bomb
Desperately waiting, dreaming for the shit to hit the fan
-
I’m still trying not to be weak
Being the opposite of what they seek
Everlasting breath
moves through the millennium
Broken hearts surround where it starts
But nothing can control those parts -
Your tentacles left me in shambles
Tightening around me
Breaking me apart
I should of known from the start
That you would break my heart
Your voice it rambles inside my head
But Maybe I should break free instead
-
I think constantly, going over and over in my head. Pressure building to expand. No one’s giving in, am I believing the truth or is my mind lying to me. Only one can say.
-
Bloomed as I became doomed
My minds racing like it’s vroomed
Can I handle what I asked for?
My heads about to explode
Dressed and begging to implode
Let honesty breathe, and decency leave
-
Mess with my heart, fair enough. But don’t mess with my head.
-
Doomsday gloom on a dusty figurine
Record runs wild looping uncontrolled
Singing aimlessly into the air
Making my skin ride bare
Favouring the instant heartache
Dreaming of a lasting blood bank
The devil plays a horrid prank
Dividing me into an alluring pain
Nothing seems seamless
Nothing feels needless
But something craves loveless
-
I’m lost.
turn my life around.
But at what cost.
My feet are bound.
Empty in the frost.
I’m tired.
Freaking out.
Everything backfired.
All I do is shout.
– There’s nothing left…
-
I’m gonna live like you’re not watching
-
Hear the girl in your song, it feels like a dream
-
I see you in my dreams,
My hair flows like streams,
Lonely as such it seems,
My heart bursts and steams,
Grown so far from our teens,
Desperate to wipe out my screens,
I like how my heart beams,
Are you sure you know what that means?
-
So long since I’ve looked away
Driving my past each way
Wondering what to say
I’ll figure it out one day
Maybe my mind will choose to stay…
-
It’s frosty in the fog of my mind, clouds bruise against my skull. Looking blankly at the wall, judging time wrong. Beckoning for a reason to survive. The depression is like poison in my veins, which makes me dangerously poisonous. Sometimes it’s best for others to stay away.
-
Basking on your thrown of lies, terrible brutal cries cemented in a fellow heart. Mine breaks for hers.
-
I see your face, it’s so out of place
Like a Picasso, dented and fragmented
But the colour is so intense, and it just doesn’t make sense.
-
There’s just something in the way you overrate me, things that maybe I don’t live up to, but it makes me smile. Every pattern draws into oblivion – the past, and into the future. Most of my words go unspoken, because honestly, I’m unsure of myself. I’m desperate to find a truth in a delusion, everything could just pass as coincidental. The messages that I feel are sent to me may not be a message for me, maybe it’s just fiction my mind wrote.
-
A crowded path as a lonely craft, stationed for impact. There’s no way I’m coming out intact, desperate for contact. My mind burrows oh so far within itself. I wonder through myself to find my lonely path. Only to be transformed into a bottomless craft destined for impact.
-
Take a step back, and deny the truth
Desperate for the proof
Opening my eyes to my unseen youth
Poison buries my body into an unrelenting shape
Taking every precaution to escape
Coming out with nothing but a scrape
Underlining every word that could be truth
Always looking for some sort of proof
Reminiscing on my youth
Bending so unruly out of shape
Desperate for any kind of escape
All that’s left is this awful scrape
-
Give me clarity in this serenity
My self control makes me lose control
Instinct overrides logic
My heart is made of glass and as it slides through my fingers it shatters on the concrete
The glass cuts my feet as I try to put the pieces back together.
But maybe it’s too late…
-
My brain runs wild with every scent of what’s meant to be. My heart breaks for my past, living in the lonely state that never gets better. Sometimes I wonder if I did one thing differently, would everything change. I relive the past over, and over – contemplating my choices. Choices that may have been for the best, but fill me with pain.
-
Torching the path through my mind, taking my time. Breathing every breath as if it’s my last. Entering the Time Machine to my past. Everything moves so fast. Unlocked memories, and unboned rarities – nothing can become unstuck, especially our past.
-
I feel the moonlight gazing through my window
I don’t see it, but I know it’s there
And I know that means it’s the dark time of day.
Singing the sad song that’s stuck in my head
I Lay straight, and untouched in my bed.
My breath is simmering in a lonely way,
I begin Dreaming of a sunshine day.
-
Maybe one day I’ll be free, I’ll be me
Someone I’m still yet to find
But I do know I’ll always be kind
Thoughts flow by slow, then thoughts fly by fast
Emptying everything I have into the vast awareness
My mind seems to lean towards the depress
But I know I’ll always be kind
-
Am I insane, or does it say my name. Listening cautiously, interestingly my attention is drawn. Love to be sworn, stung by a snake. A liars path did you take? Or am I just insane, the pattern remains. Going in circles, waiting for the proof.
-
Never, ever would I think I’d forget.
Forgive, sure…But forget, no.
I’m wandering through a forest in my mind
Blinking softly as I move through the trees
No one can stop me from reliving my past mistakes
Nothing can ease the pain of these regrets
-
The weight is almost to much to bare
Taking every step like maybe you’ll still care
I was never the one who was able to share
Reminiscing on the revenge in your glare
-
I’ve never been so paralysed here in paradise
Gloomy storms begin to brew through my mind
Paradise feels now so far away
Trembling for peace, I begin to decease
-
Sunshine on a blue day
Feels so weird to say
Everyone’s got their way
I’d beg you just to stay
My skin begins to Fray
My mind decides to play
Everyone seems to betray
-
Ready for take-off, but my wings are broken
Taking each step slowly so I don’t fall
Never have I been as taken as now
I wish I could take your hand, and it will all be okay
I wish things could be different,
Maybe in another life, or another time.
-
Afternoons slip into mornings and the air feels so calm as your breathing it in, just to say what will come of today?
And a grey cloud hovers above my head, rain empties from the cloud making the tears rolling down my face less obvious.
And then morning slips into afternoon.
-
What’s left in the unsaid
Dampening beneath my breath
Always frozen, always burning
Never ending turning,
taken by a stream of tears
Lost beneath the current
Eliminating me, I’m drowning
-
I’d transport my thoughts if I could
I’d send them to a place,
Where bad thoughts don’t hurt
-
Waking only to find I’m lost
Trembling in the way I tossed
No one feels my emotion
Going through the motions
Never ending taking place
Taking breath in every case
Solitary blames my only way
Begging for you just to say
-
Whistle in the moonlight
A song sleepless in the night
Forever chasing you
Forever losing you
Long lost on an empty frost
At what cost will I become tossed
In the recycling, I am recycled
-
Sliding, scraping away
Deafened by the sound my heart decides to be its prey.
Cracking under the pressure, no hope to measure
I blink once, then twice – but there’s nothing nice about it
Nothing compares, nothing ever declares
I’m Frozen in a bucket of tears
-
Peeling in poison
Breaking my back to understand what’s wrong with me.
There’s not even a tiny glimmer of hope
I’m just lonely in my quest to live
-
Broken, but you can’t tell by my appearance
I look like I’m all together
It affects me like brain damage
I’m Fighting A polluted mind
Desperate for answers
I cower in the corner
Seeking peace would come more effortlessly
Shaded from the sun, blinded before it began
I’m just hopelessly waiting
-
Taking my last breath to a leaping depth
I never felt so tense, nothing makes sense
Traveling to another place, showered in lace
Fragments of death upon the theft
Nothing feels right, my chest breathes so tight
Everything takes shape, but never feels straight
You lend a helping hand,
from beneath the liars chair that you stand
Take my hand, and we’ll break free from this land
-
Beautiful seascape storm
Centred around my base
Categorised by form
An Internal left out space
-
Crying in the bathtub
Dreaming of my death
A craving I yearn for,
But not yet want
Loosely divulging into my spiral
A ghost lost but unprepared to aspire
With each sallow I took the chance
But ended up regretting my choice
Yet that yearning still haunts me
Day in, and day out
An outcast fighting for true belonging
-
How did I make it here,
So far away from you?
How did I lose so much?
Breathing battered breaths,
From longing depths
Nothing seems to drain my mess
Begging to eliminate my stress
Why do I favour contempt?
Why can’t I see myself different?
Always confused, in a deadly doom.
Maybe tomorrow will change
-
I feel so disconnected
Everyone feels so distant
The world seems fragmented
I could disappear in an instant
-
Creepy crawly crawling on me
Dead till the end, the depth of despair
Never breaking forward to meet the air
Forever locked in a long lost battle
Forced to freeze in an up fold shatter
I will never be the same in this endless pain
-
Why must the wind howl like a dog desperate for air?
The tone in my voice becomes relentless and bare
Together they bend to train their stare
Forever I’ll learn I’m born to scare
All this taming doesn’t seem fair
I’m lonely in this world bound to tear
Why did I teach myself to care
-
I hit the ground as hard as possible
Searching for something left unfound
I want more, I’ll always want more
But I’m afraid – maybe things weren’t meant to go my way
I hit the ground while I was searching for something that wasn’t meant to be found
-
Washing the clarity from my mind
Intense dread runs through to find
A longtime I tried to be kind
But now I’m hopeless only to remind
You of what comes behind
I’m watching you break in my mind
I’m watching myself turn blind
Bending, and breaking into the grind
Something I could not define
A love lost in time
-
Smash with the crash of the bone
Shaking to the breath of alone
Taking a fearful step to the stone
Wings too broken to have flown
I wish you could have shown
-
A total of a wink of sleep
I’m not sure if you will be kind
It’s okay, I don’t really mind
A total of a blink too deep
I’m totally lost trying to find
My parts for you to bind
-
I can’t tell myself what I’m supposed to do
Caught in the memory of you
All I know is the depth of this takes two
I have to say I have no clue
What’s real, and what not to pursue
-
Love feverish with a slow burn
You left me in a ditch
I crawled out, but now I’m dead
A zombie in the flesh
Here where I end, I begin
There was nowhere to turn
The air was no longer fresh
And my bed still lay empty
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I don’t have the crystal clear vision
My glasses are fogged
Making my decision blocked
A sinister plot to create an incision
One I’d never go through with
A mission to end the dream
Nothing is as you’d seem
You have the light, but dream of the dark
Maybe you didn’t have the spark
I made the endless mark, that burns through your heart
Stapled to the fog of my glasses, I have the crystal clear vision now.
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I drain my energy, floating through the pain.
Nothing creates something in my brain.
Dazed through the elements of rain, blood demands my attention.
Nothing compares to the depths of my insanity, nothing gains from my empathy.
Empty and alone I find a path to take.
A lonely path destined to break.
Nothing compares to my pain.
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You’ll fear me forever
Afraid to see me, my eyes bleed
Taking revenge at every stage
As you take the stage, bleeding with rage
I can’t take these words you throw at me
My eyes close, focused on your prose
Nothing can clear my head
Nothing can take back what you said
I’ll fear you forever
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It seems seamless the way the words flow
Breaking down every breath from below
My understanding is not always instant
But the poem leaves me a great indent
Banishing the poison from my pain
A silhouette with tears of rain
I’ve come to reclaim my brain
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I am enslaved by the bane of my existence
Twisting and turning but never learning
You take a stake to my chest
Just as I was about to leave
I turn to see the thunder thumping in your heart
And I think to myself, Maybe it isn’t over…
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I still hope that you lied to me.
Because if you did, then it means my mind isn’t lying.
I feel so defenceless against uncontrollable circumstances.
Trying to swim to the surface just so I can take that deep breath you deny me.
I’m motionless hanging onto my hope, begging my soul just to cope with this empty mess.
I’ve never been able to handle too much stress. But because of you, I’m bleeding constantly.
It feels like my heart was stolen.
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It feels like I’ve been waiting so long
I’ve held on so strong
Weeping on a sun soaked willow
Feeding it from under my pillow
Will I hear the sounds soon?
I beg to hear the tune
Please let it reveal the truth
I need the proof
To end the endless suffering
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Tomorrow I’ll run against the smallest odds
I’ll frown upon the lonely thoughts
That trim a breathless pain too close to remain
In my destiny
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I lost something that was important to me
I lost something, and now my soul runs bare
I’m frozen in the empty air
As I breathe shallow, I hear the warning
from my heart to my mind
‘Let go’ and I let my tears rain,
Until I’m empty
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My heart breaks, and the tiny pieces fade into oblivion
Shading the emptiness of my mind, tidying the thoughts that rain over you
Nothing changes, even though I want it to
Dreams of you just summon my pain, they flow through like rain
Steadying my gaze on an old picture of you, fretting what could of been but never was
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Sunshine aches on the back of my bones
Broken by the backbone of the stones
Stolen by a form of broken place
Rubbing the last existence of my face
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I don’t know who I am
My whole past feels forgotten to the point I feel empty
I’m trying to connect with my past but everything feels like a hopeless task.
I taste my future, but don’t dare to look
Every sin is a regret I never win
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She’s so beautiful, delicate like a rose.
I thought she was perfect but Every rose has their thorns and everyone bleeds their thoughts sometimes.
How are we so opposite ?
We have both entangled your heart, and your love has strangled me.
I wonder if she’s easy to read like a page from a book, a page that is so easily folded.
I’m like an enigma, not easily moulded.
While my heart unravels, her heart travels and We are loved by the same person.
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Depression has stung me
I’m bleeding In a pool of my sorrow
Deadened by my unbreakable woe
Gasping for any taste of Light
It’s an entangled fight with the darkness
Schizoreflective 